To those of you, with broken hearts...

Just give her some time.
She has a lot going on right now, and a lot on her mind.
If you love her then wait, things will work out in time.
Do you still love her?

Falling in love is easy, falling out of love isn't.
A broken heart isn't a weakness, merely an obstacle to overcome.

You can't just give up and walk away from life.
Bad things can happen, and they will happen.
There's nothing we can do to prevent that.
But we can learn from them.

Giving your heart to someone isn't easy to do, but having them hand it back to you is even harder.
Just because one relationship doesn't work out, that doesn't mean that there won't be that 'someone just for you' waiting in the wings.

It just takes time.
You have to be patient.
Love will find it's way to you.
Sometimes in the most strangest of ways.
But love always finds a way.

So don't give up, you've got you're whole life ahead of you.

A Silly Pointless Poem

I want to write
But have nothing to say
There are things I should be doing
But I'll push them away

Far away,
For another day
Farther, farther,
And farther away

I'm in the mood for playing
But here again, I'll lay
I'll lay and dream,
And dream and lay

But here, forever, I will stay

I'm losing my words
Leaving my thoughts to stay unspoken
Though my love it shines through
Saving my heart from being broken

Ramblings of the Thoughts in My Mind

It was a silly moment
One in which I didn't think
Didn't react
Didn't speak
The outcome of my actions
And the world both seemed so bleak

Life is hard to deal with sometimes, it really is.
Difficulties can come along unexpectedly and turn your world upside-down.
And inside-out. A complete and total 180 of what it originally was like.

Make me dizzy
Make me weak
Fill my lungs
With frightened shrieks

The future is scary, dark, and hard-to-see.
But also bright and happy, with so many possibilities.

"You've got a good head on your shoulders. You know what's up and going on. I'm sure that in time you'll have everything all straightened out. Don't worry so much."
- Uncle Dennis -

Maybe I am worrying a bit too much, I just need to slow down and enjoy the present. And let the future wait for a little bit longer. It is the Summer of my Junior year in High School, after all. I should just kick back, relax, and enjoy life.
Yes, I think I'll do just that.

♥

Not even a clue, just yet. But I love it that way. - ♥

I'm cryin' for nothin'
But it's just what I need
It's silly, I know
But it helps me let go
Of all of the pain
Oh, how I love you so.

I miss you
When you're not here
So very much
Now and forever my dear.

I'm not going anywhere, I'll always be right here.

For him, my Alexander, and all of you, my loved ones.
This I promise you. With all my self, I swear it.

Thank you, Mommy. I love you too. - Dedicated To My Loving Mother

Silly boys will come and go.
Sometimes love can leave you [flying] low.
Friends will say, "I told you so..."
And you end up saying, "I know, I know..."

"No matter how hard you try to just let things go, they always end up coming back to get you. Karma in a nutshell, I suppose. That's the way things always seem to go." -AM

Words of wisdom and comfort from my Mother:

"But you just have to continue on, pushing yourself forward. When you fall down all you can do is pick yourself up, dust yourself off, maybe give yourself a little pep talk, and then keep on going. Even when it seems that the rest of the world has turned its back on you, and there's no one left to, and all you want to do is lock yourself away and just cry, you have to keep moving on. And if you're having a rough day or something, you can put on an act if you need to, your own little facade, and pretend like nothing is wrong. If you don't want to talk you don't have to, just be polite and try to stay calm. Then when the day is done and you still want to cry, you can come home to me and I'll be there for you to talk to and the shoulder for you to lean and cry on. I love you so much and I wish that I could take away all the bad things in the world and keep anything from hurting you, but I can't. But I love you so much that if I could do anything at all to help you or to make you feel better I would. You'll always be my sweet little baby girl Anna-E and I love you. You're my first baby and my miracle child, I'll love you no matter what happens and I'll always be here for you. I love you, AnnaMarie."

-Mommy-

Just a little life advice

How do you think this situation makes me feel?
Things just haven't been the same, obviously.
But that's life for you, always changing.
Like a two year-old unable to choose just one piece of candy from the check-out counter, it's hard to make decisions now-a-days.
It's even harder when you take the time to realize that each decision we make can change almost everything.
Every little pin drop, however seemingly meaningless it may be, can dissolve away what was supposed to be and end up bringing about and earthquake of events.
Horrible or otherwise, it happens.
People get hurt each day, mistakes are made and people have to live with them for the rest of their lives.
Or rather, the decisions they make end up hurting their loved ones.
It hurts.
But we have to continue on, striving to do better the next time the chance arrives.
Learn from your mistakes.
When you mess up look at the situation from a different perspective.
Review the consequences and see what could have been done differently.
Try your best, then try harder.
Set limits for yourself, then push past them.
Move forward, not back.
Stay optimistic, not matter what anyone else thinks.
Believe, hope, keep the faith, fight for your dreams.
Fight, don't give in.
Stay strong, don't give up.
Dream about happy things.
Love life as it is...not as you what it isn't.

Can you hear me?

Even more so, are you actually listening?
I feel as though everything I say goes in one ear and out the other.

"The love we feel may not be the same but it doesn't matter when I'm with the "someone just for me." If we can all find that special person then the world will be a most joyous place."
-From volume 8 of Chobits by CLAMP-

My Heart - Paramore

I am finding out that maybe I was wrong
That I've fallen down and I can't do this alone

Stay with me,
This is what I need,
Please.

[Refrain:]
Sing us a song and we'll sing it back to you
We could sing our own but what would it be without you?

I am nothing now and it's been so long
Since I've heard the sound, the sound of my only hope

This time I will be listening.

[Repeat Refrain]

This heart, it beats, beats for only you (2x)

This heart, it beats, beats for only you
My heart is yours

This heart, it beats, beats for only you
My heart is yours
(My heart, it beats for you)

This heart, it beats, beats for only you (It beats, beats for only you)
My heart is yours (My heart is yours)

This heart, it beats, beats for only you (Please don't go now, please don't fade away)
My heart, my heart is yours (Please don't go now, please don't fade away)

(Please don't go now, please don't fade away) My heart is yours
(Please don't go now, please don't fade away) My heart is yours
(Please don't go, please don't fade away)
(Please don't go now, please don't fade away) My heart is...

I'm Giving Up...

No I'm not...

But that doesn't change the fact that I want to...

Or does it?

Do I even have the option?

No, of course not.

Why should I, of all people, be able to give up something I've fought so long and hard to keep?

I guess I just don't know any more.

Maybe I never will...
But that's life for you.

Or, well, at least my life

Thank You, Whoever You Are.

I don't know you.
And you don't know me.
But I just thought that I'd stop by and leave you a message complimenting, well, you.
Your profile is very truthful.
Or at least it leads itself to be.
And based on that I would like to tell you that I believe in your existence.
I don't know why, but I feel compelled to let you know that I am proud of the person you are.
You are so wonderfully awesome.
I hope that one day you find true happiness.
And if you already have, or even when you do, I pray that you hold onto it with all of your might and never let go.
I believe in you.
=]
Stay awesome.