Then again I'm not even completely sure why I'm upset.
No, maybe I am.
Where has my love gone?
In a month he'll be leaving and I don't know how I feel about that.
Sad, yes.
But maybe I'm not so sad that he's leaving than I am about him leaving without my love for him still remaining here with me.
Okay, now I know I didn't word that right, but I could care less right now. This whole blog will end up being like that tonight, sorry.
Wait, just who am I apologizing to?
Ugh. Anyways...
Where's the passion?
He used to kiss me so sweetly and now I don't feel the love emanate from our embrace.
His words come off scripted and almost hollow.
Not that I don't believe what he says, it's just they're the same that he's been saying to me for years now...
I want to hit the refresh button and start anew, but he doesn't seem to understand that.
Or at least he doesn't seem to be taking what I have to say about it seriously...
What can I do?
I don't know if there's anything I can do that would make a difference before he leaves.
If things are so stale now, how will they be when he's gone for 8 months?
Worse yet, I have no one to turn to about this stuff.
I'm afraid to talk to anyone about how I feel because I don't want them to think less of me or feel that they are superior to me. I just want someone whose shoulder I can lean on.
A friend that I can go to with all of my worries and fears...
Someone I can trust.
Sad music playing on Pandora, trying to keep my tears off of my keyboard.
I feel so ridiculous.
