It's nice to meet you.
Okay, I realize this is sort of cliche.
But I'm feeling a tad lonely today.
No offense to anyone who might read this blog, you know who you are.
But getting to spend time with friends just makes me realize how often I'm by myself these days, and honestly it sucks.
:/
I don't like being by myself, it gives me a lot of time to think and I do too much of that already.
I know that 'being alone' is something that can't always be helped, I came to that conclusion a long time ago.
It just doesn't help me feel any better about it.
Oh, well.
There's not much I can do about it.
Aside from the obvious, today was a lot of fun. :)
I got to play tennis and cook dinner for my friends, it was only Hamburger Helper but it still counts!
:P
I'm not a big fan of jealousy, I try not to show it when I can.
But I want to inspire something, something fun.
Something pretty, something laughably cute.
Idk.
It's silly, I know.
But I like getting attention sometimes, I can't help it.
I may have been the oldest child, but I've always felt some sort of longing for the spotlight.
I guess that's why I love acting so much, and color guard.
Now don't get me wrong.
I'm not one of those bratty prima-donna types that has to have everything her way...
Albeit I am a bit of a control-freak with some obsessive compulsive habits.
What I mean is that I understand that some things don't always go the way you want them to, no matter how much planning you might put into them.
Life, can be very frustrating.
But it's worth all the stress.
I'm glad that my friends are in town.
It's nice having someone come down to see me, even if it is only indirectly.
At least they're here, for now.
I'll have to make...
No, I'm going to make the best of this.
All of this.
Every single situation, good or bad.
I'm going to make the best of it.
:)
Anywho, it's getting late.
Or early, I should say.
Lol.
I should head off to bed now.
Maybe tomorrow will bring more fun and wonderful memories for us to share.
:)
I hope so.
Goodnight, world.
See you tomorrow.
